Life Is Funny

Life is funny.  The way it unfolds.  Just when you think you’ve got a handle on it the next big reveal happens.  I wouldn’t change a thing!  Let me back track a little.  Almost two years ago I made the most difficult decision of my life up to that point.  After four years of marriage I came to what felt like a brick wall.  I couldn’t climb over, bust through or ignore that it was there.  I was an emotional and mental wreck.  I had lost all perspective and was unable to see a future for myself.  I couldn’t avoid it any longer.  It wasn’t pretty, many people were hurt, but I knew deep down it was the right thing to do.

The story isn’t new.  It’s been told many times before.  It was, however, all new to me.  I felt completely disoriented.  So very lost and sad, ashamed of how I was handling (or not handling) the challenges in front of me.  There was one very bright light that kept me going, a beautiful little boy.  A very wise, kind and thoughtful little boy, funny too!  He believed in me and loved me just as I am.  He offered me hope and I began to accept it.  I began to believe in my future again.  I had no idea what it would be but I knew it was there, waiting for me to grab hold of. 

I took a running start…okay at that time it was probably more of a jog…or maybe a fast walk, alright the truth is…I forced my ass off of the couch with my arms stretched as far as they could and grabbed onto the tail end of what looked to be my future, or maybe a wet fish.  It could have been a poop bag for all I knew but I grabbed it and didn’t let go.  Turns out it wasn’t a wet fish or a bag of fresh dog poop.  It was in fact the title page of my future and the best part was that I got to choose what it said and how it read.  Imagine my surprise!

Since then there have been many ups and downs along the way.  All of them lessons, some of which I was ready for and others that I wasn’t.  Many have come up again, the others I expect to meet in the future.  Do you remember the old saying, “You can run but you can’t hide”?  Yep, I believe the lessons of life to be the poster child for that adage.

Which brings me here.  12:39am on September 16, 2014.  It’s me and my computer and a nice hot cup of tea to keep me company.  And so I write…because it helps.  I’ve decided to share what I write on a blog.  Why?  For many reasons I suppose.  It’s a way to reach out, an opportunity to express myself and as scary as it might be it feels right.  My intention is to share my experiences, good, bad and everything in between.  I hope you find this space engaging, thoughtful and creative with a side of funny!  Please join me…

With Love,

Keri Tea